Really Real

Ok so let me be really real for a moment.  Since being pregnant with our 3rd baby I have gone through various emotions.  I have gone from ecstatic to fearful.  I have to say I love being pregnant!  The idea of growing a human is beyond words.  However the other stuff that comes with having another baby is quite overwhelming.  Like, "Where is this baby going to sleep?"  "How are we going to transport this baby around?"  "How am I going to keep my sanity intact with 3 kids under 3?"

I have to be careful of who I share my concerns with because, of course, we get the cynical question, "Well, you know what causes more babies right?"  And for your information, yes I do.  But my husband and I are not willing to stop. :)  Anyway, I have really battled my emotions lately, which I understand could be hormonal and could be legitimate concerns.  The past few nights I have been waking up at the same time (not sure if it is the Lord or if it is just the time my last glass of water happens to want to exit).  The time is 3:33.  Every time I look at the clock that is what it says.  The Lord reminded of His word in Jeremiah 33:3, "Call to me and I will answer you, I will show you great and mighty things that you do not know."  What's funny is that I didn't even relate my concerns with what God was trying to show me until this morning.

So this morning I spent some time calling to the Lord and asking questions.  What's really great is that He doesn't even have to answer me right now, I just love that wants to.  Even though we don't have a lot of answers right now I still feel comforted that God knows my heart and he even knows my crazy, hormonal emotions.  Wahoo!  My heart needed to be reassured not only that He's "got this" but also that He knows what I need when I need it.  Isn't that what we all desire?  To be fully, completely and wholly known.  Oh how that makes my heart happy.  He knows my every need and desire, simple I know but oh so needed now.

Anyway, to lighten the mood a bit, I think I will share a few stories of the kiddos because what's a blog without post about the kids right?
Every night Havah and me or Matt read her a Bible story from her children's Bible.  Then after reading we ask her if she would like to walk or be carried to her room to go to bed.  Lately her response has been, "Want you carry me like a Baby Daddy."  WHAT?!!  Where did she get that?  It started off with a baby G-Daddy (which is what we call Matt's dad) and now every night it is someone else in the family like a baby Erica (my sister-in-law) or a baby Josiah.  She is so funny.  We asked her where she got that and we haven't gotten an answer yet.

She and Josiah are starting to play together more.  Their favorite game is where she gets Josiah's blanket and says,"Josiah Matthew you got get me!" then she runs away.  Of course, he doesn't always appreciate his blanket being taken but usually enjoys the chase.

Here are the kids playing at the park.  

We have also made some new friends over the past 3 weeks.  At our house we have cow pasture on two sides of our property which consist of about 10 cows and 2 donkeys.  So we have made friends with the donkeys.  Every day from 3:30-4:30 they come to the fence and we go feed them.  We have found that they really like carrots.  The kids LOVE feeding them except for the the occasional bite of the fingers...oops.  The donkeys have even gotten to where when they see the kids out the go to the nearest fence thinking we are going to feed them.  It is pretty fun to see and a great activity when we have visitors.

Oh and a baby update, we are now almost 14 weeks.  We should find out the gender of the baby around Christmas.  I am doing great despite the occasional morning nausea.  So we are just growing away.

That should do it for now.  Nighty night.